Baby Isabella

Dear Lord,

I just found out again that I may not get to keep her. I know you love her more than I do. If she goes to your arms before she comes to mine, I know I will meet her in heaven.
I want her so much. It is hard to process my thoughts.
My heart is broken.
I know Your eyes were not closed when You formed her lovingly in my womb. I am not sure of Your plan for us. I know I trust YOu with that.
My internet friend, Ellie's mom, is making a concious effort to enjoy her days with Ellie. I have enjoyed every little kick and roll, every ultrasound, every precious sign of her precious little life.
Life has been so busy for me. Working full time, Dad's wedding, Hugh's funeral, taking care of the house and kids, planning Sarah's wedding, doctor's appointments, all keeping me exhausted. I am going to make a conscious effort to be conscious of everything I am doing with Isabella. I am going to treasure my time with her. I am going to live in the moment and not wait for the future because today is all I have for sure and I don't want to regret how I spent today.
I hear You speaking to me, Lord, help me to hear.

Joy.
I have had a singular lack of it lately. No time in the word.
Worry.
I have been doing too much of that lately. No time in the word.
Planning.
None.
Organization.
None.
I need the Lord in my every day life.
Can't believe I let busyness push Him out.
Rectifying that tonight.

Gratitude. Forgiveness. Love. Joy. Peace.
Things of eternal significance.

I am having a really hard time today. Really tired and fretting about the baby. She is in an odd position. I can't feel her movements as well in this position and it makes me worry that something is wrong. I can't wait until Wednesday.

goodies for the rooms


food for my house for before the rehersal.


Invitations to my house for before the rehersal.


Confirm guests


Office guests





Menu for rehersal dinner


guest count


tablecloths


siverware


napkins


serving pieces


candles


candleabra


flowers for table





Boston Butt


Baked Beans


Slaw


Potato Salad


Cheesecake





Shrimp


Remoulade


Salad


Fruit


Cheese


Meatballs


Spinach Dip


Artichoke Dip



Soft Drinks

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